Well, tonight while waiting for the bfiie to come home,
and it is my off day tomorrow as well..
i have decided to write a post of my feelings,
nowadays.
i dont know why..
i feel so freaking down these days.
those unhappy moment keeps on appear in my mind,
friends, family, work, money, love :( :(
and i couldnt resist myself from thinking about it.
My goodness, this is torturing me :( :(
Love life : i guess i still manage to cope with him. He sayang me alot. i feel so blessed all the time. Wondering why i will have the chance to be treating this good. Never feel regret for choosing him at the first place. I shall say.. Everything is OKAY right now *touchwood* except for the unpredictable thing that happening right now, haihhhh.
Family : Awwh, dad and mom will also argue about the same thing sometimes. The thing which i cant tell here, haihz. Every each time seeing them arguing thing about that i really feel so unhappy, but at the same time i dont manage to help them. Haihz i hope they will actually compromise about it. I WISH MOM AND DAD will never argue about it anymore. Both of you are getting older already, please appreciate the time together OKAY MAH? :( seeing you both working so hard in the morning til evening, i bet once we reach home after work what we expect from the family is Happiness, and Warmth feeling aight? so yeah.. Daddy & Mommy.. be happy okay? :')
Friends : Friends? i had a few bunch of friends. But.. all these while i dont have much popularity among them. i mean, they will not request to meet me oftenly or so on.AM NOT IMPORTANT? yeah true, not important to them.i always got left out, this and that. Maybe.. i ve got my own problem too. Working starts in the afternoon every Friday n Saturday, they will be coming out to have a drink and etc mostly on this two days.Every time i dont manage to join them, so for sure there will be a gap btw us. i don't blame them, i dont.. i will just blame myself don't have the time for them.
Anyhow i will still be with them if the timing is right ;) i hope is not too late?
I expect too much from them.
Expect them to care for my feelings,
talk to me, never feel boring, never hate me,
and many many things /__\
But.. start from now, i will try to let go..
not to care that much..
i always tell myself, even am alone..
i still manage to continue the path of my life slowly.
but in real life, do i really able to do so?
HAHAA
this is a Question, sigh.
unhappy moment really pass that SLOW
if compare to happy moment.
happy moment can really pass just a blink of eyes.
SADNESS !!
Please stay away from me,
i wanna be a happy girl.
Everyone loves my Laughter, my Smile, my Craziness.
NEVER BE AFRAID TO BE LONELY,
because you are not.
I AM NOT ! be positive. stay positive.
Feel like hugging him to cry right now.
very emotional, sigh.
GOOD NIGHT, ciaos.